1. |
The Wrinkled Sea
01:07
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The Wrinkled Sea
We walked by the wrinkled sea
Huddled up against the vicious wind
Whipping a storm from the east
Through ginnels and nooks and cobbled streets
Up the hundred and ninety nine steps
I count every single one
The sun behind us, casting those long shadows
Leaving the slumbering streets below the Plimsoll line of dusk
The boats creaking and bobbing
Swaying and moaning in the harbor
And we survey the scene of gravestones
A hundred, two hundred years old
Here when I was born and
Here when I die
I expect
Frayed and weather worn
Beaten by the wind
Baked by the sun
Frozen in the snow
Dented by the rain
The poems indecipherable
The tributes undetectable
The dates timeless
The relatives loved and lost
The elegies eroded
The Bible quotes salt licked
And I wonder if anybody remembers them
These little pieces of history
These moments
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This Northern Sky, This Solitude
This northern sky, sun, shining, silence, rolling hills, curves and angles
This brooding hour, soft fingertips, silhouettes and masterpieces
This skin of stains, vague sensations, hallucinations of ancient characters
This fading day, betwixt, between, incomplete sleep, intrusions
This golden emptiness, wild flowers wild like dancing girls in the sprinkling light
This mirrorball shines, sparkles, highlights the high kites caught in
This bob and weave in the sky, writing slow love letters home
This shuffling evening, leaving, feeling the overspill, pushed and pulled in
This shaft of silence, only traces of past conversations, forgotten, erased
This pocket watch scene, time ticks serene, begin the begin on
This marked deck, aces high, aces low, hands shown and chances blown
This deserted landscape, fuzzy around the edges
This unbuckling, winding down, settling in
This returning, this traveler, volumes of train journeys and chain revolutions
This flickering light, this disappearing light, glanced over bare shoulders
This water colour painting, dainty flicks and arching swishes
This gentle breeze that breathes life and tickles noses
This horizon of perched birds in this corn yellow sunset
This gathering night and this candle wax vibe
This slow motion
This fragile petal
This orange sketch
This lover’s mood
This northern sky
This solitude
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3. |
It's Been A While
01:20
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It’s Been A While
It’s been a while since I last penned a black ink poem
Been busy
Collecting dirty postcards
And washing soup stains out of the sofa
Picking scabs like tin can ring pulls
Pinning butterflies and storming castles
Writing tragedies, comedies, remedies
Sculpting heroines, theremins, Bedouins
Deleting flash drives, smoking out beehives
Afternoon naps, kick back, relaxing
Remembering, forgetting, misplacing, maybe
Brewing bad tea and oiling old knees
Sewing up pockets and eyeballing sockets
Manoeuvering death, improving life
Growing blood apples, sidestepping arseholes
Growing up, shaking up
Thinking about all the things I should’ve taken up
Diluting my pain, anticipating rainfall
Sometimes you’ve got to carve the day out with a knife
And sometimes, it just happens.
It’s been a long old time, sure
Some would say not long enough
Just ask the postman
Weighed down with my rejection letters
A trail of elastic bands in my yard
Like a mountaineer marking his way home
“But they’re biodegradable” he smirks over his shoulder
“Sure” I say
But six months later, they’re still there
Strangling field mice and choking magpies
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4. |
The Flame Still Burns
01:40
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The Flame Still Burns
It rained all day
That drizzle
That misty drizzle like a pencil sketch in a soggy doggy eared pad
We donned extra layers, buttons fastened, collars up
We sat in creaking chairs, had afternoon tea in China cups
Visited antique shops, seen Clarice Cliff teapots
And rockabilly dresses covered in polka dots
We sheltered by the Minster
Reminded me of a photograph
Taken on 35mm by my dad
The last snap on the roll
But it didn’t quite fit, the photo distorted at the edge
Red and fiery, aflame
Later, the Minster was struck by a bolt of lightning
Caught alight
Saved by the firefighters
But, ravaged in parts
Blackened and collapsing
The camera never lies
We walked on the city walls
The ancient stones that surround this place
Thought we could get of at an appropriate point
But there was no exit
So we walked and walked and walked
We walked forever around this city
Smeared with Starbucks and McDonald’s
Medieval stone and neon slogans side by side
Viking footprints and electric blue
Ancient carvings and gaudy pink
Reflected on the pavements
Mirrored in the rainwater
Projected on the city walls
The layers of time, connected
The old and the new
Our past and present
You can dampen the fire
But the flame still burns
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From A To Z And Back Again
I was on my way home in the October sunshine
After being in a blind daze
Day after day
The realization hit me that life does indeed go on
The dishes need washing
The electricity bill needs paying
You’ve got to comb your hair
And change your underwear
Work your forty hour week
Fix that tap that leaks
Do the little things to survive
Because, life must go on
When somebody you love dies
The pyramids are still there
The rain still falls and you never have an umbrella
Ella Fitzgerald is still playing on the radio
So let’s dance
You still hate getting up early
You’re surly before your first coffee
Banoffee pie still gives you love handles
The vandals still smash phone boxes
You still can’t play the piano
Your internet’s still running slow
You need to shop for bread and milk
Replace the flowers, they’ve wilted
In the hungover clouds that shroud us all
Life must go on when death appears
And me?
My younger days are behind me
There are books on my shelf that will be left unread
Words left unsaid
Desires left unfed
From A to Z
And back again
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6. |
Animal Summer
01:46
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Animal Summer
I open my eyes and listen to the thunder
Waiting for the lightning to whip the sky
But I never see it
I wait, but it never comes
I step outside the house
A small bird lies on its back
Not a feather out of place
Its claws dainty
Breakable
Tail feathers hanging over the step
Tiny eyes closed to the world
The end will come to one and all
I guess
I walked past a rat every day for a while
Slowly decomposing on the pavement
Until finally
The skeleton was all that remained
It was washed away by the summer rain
Deep into the ancient drainage system
I hate that crunch of the snail underfoot
In the dark, in the damp evenings
Its fragile shell obliterated by a gigantasaur foot
A Monty Python sketch
The snail stretched
Lingering in the tread
Poked out by gravel
Drowned in a puddle
The last remains on the welcome mat
Drying out in the sun like a dirty raisin
There was a seal washed up on the pebbled beach
Where I played with my sister
We were kids
I’d forgotten about that
I haven’t seen her for a while, it’s been too long
On the upside, I saved a bee today
It was lifeless on the driveway
Confused, weary, I sat with it
Gave it sugary water, read it some Chaucer
There’s the happy ending for you.
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7. |
The Half Fallen Tree
01:20
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The Half Fallen Tree
I chopped a half fallen tree down in the yard today
Don’t get me wrong
It wasn’t a mighty redwood the width of a refrigerator
But it was hard work
It sure as hell didn’t want me to take up lumberjacking
Either as a living or a hobby
But it was the second tree that I’d cut down in my life
The first being at my parents’ house
They were away on holiday and the tree had fallen in a storm
I was younger then though, it was easier
When I finished and had piled the logs together
I mean, I say logs but
If you built a log cabin out of them
It might be okay for Barbie and Ken
For a weekend retreat
I got the idea that I’d carve something out of this wood
Just for a moment
I’d watched too many off grid TV shows
You know the kind
People building cabins and beaver trapping
Wrestling bears and purifying their own urine
That’s not the life for me
I’d miss supermarket checkout queues and fresh scones
Stroking random cats in the street, barbershops
Gridlock traffic, pretty girls, hair gel, book hunting, wi-fi
Saturday afternoon football, funerals
Doctor’s waiting rooms
The smell of a bakery at dusk
And all that jazz
No, the lumberjack life
It’s not for me
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8. |
Aloisius the Crab
01:56
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Aloisius The Crab
I like writing to the sound of the rain, gently dabbing at the windows
A candle burning, gingerbread and woodshed aromas
A hot cup of tea in an ancient cup, filled up to the brim
Tea stains in the cracks that spread like a spider’s web around the curves
My headache trails away like ash in a fading fire
But stir it up and the flames will rise, reaching, higher
It’s been a long day
The summer has seemingly faded
And I’ve waded through it
Sleep is the only remedy
But it’s early yet, too early.
I compose a list of chores of
Doors to close, dirt to clean, button’s to button, the peacock’s preen
The important and irrelevant, the elephant in the room
Sad eyed at the piano keys
So I pack my trunk and head to the coast
Because the sea is my brother but some siblings
They drown their own flesh and blood
Without the blink of an evil eye
Or a by or leave you in the sea like a punctured Lilo
Later, caught in a fishing net, a crab chewing on your elbow
You’re both slung on the deck, bereft
The crew aghast and the crab
Let’s call him Aloisius
He sneaks off sideways, gives a pincer wave
Glancing back with those lollipop eyes of his
And Aloisius the crab drifts down
Down, down, down to the sea bed
He makes his home in a discarded saxophone
That was blown by John Coltrane
That was blown in the New York rain
Blown through the New York nights
Blown through the subway train and
Until the day he died
When it was blown
Nevermore
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9. |
Dreadnought
01:33
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Dreadnought
I remember the first song I learnt to play on the guitar
Lessons every Monday
A roomful of people playing
A string buzzing, flat singing, tone deaf version
Of ‘Tom Dooley’
A murder ballad and boy, did we murder it!
We were a raggle taggle bunch
Old and young, fathers and sons
Hippy mums, young punks
Lonely souls, people on the dole
Folkies, okie dokies and the break time smokies
Indie kids, the already dids
The never gonna happens and me
A guy turned up with a Les Paul
Ready to rock’n’roll
We’re all with cat gut ancient strings
Car boot sale finds and necks that bend
Another said he knew some of ‘Stairway To Heaven’
I’m pretty sure he played every second
Big Jim Johnson taught us the chords
To folk songs from days of yore
Skiffle tunes and pop tones
Little riffs and flummoxing solos
Big Jim played this Dreadnought Yamaha
Mother of pearl inlay around the curves
He wore it on his bulbous belly
Like an ornamental belt buckle
I remember the first song I wrote
It was a muddy Woody Guthrie rip-off
I couldn’t sing, I could barely play
I had no life experience and
Poetry was new to me
But, three chords and the truth
Y’know
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10. |
Disturbing the Dust
00:55
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Disturbing The Dust
It gives me a certain degree of pleasure, to think that
If I ever get published
I’ll be nestled on the shelves
Somewhere between Charles Bukowski and Robert Burns
In those coffee aroma book shops
And small town libraries
Parisienne market stalls and town hall book fairs
Alphabetized and categorized
On bargain shelves and thrift stores
Charity shops and book pulping floors.
Plucked out by intrigue
Disturbing the dust
Slipped in, smooth and straight
Skim read while wasting time
Fingered while sheltering from the rain
Obsessed over and dismissed
Reactions of “Who?” and “Never heard of him!”
It gives me even greater pleasure to know that
Between me, Bukowski and Burns
Two of us are dead
And one of them isn’t me
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Never Trust A Man In A Beret
He was a man I knew of rather than knew
I told the police this when they hauled him away
In his dirty mac and black beret
I’d seen him around, sure
Buying lollipops at the petrol station
House door keys jangling
Hanging down on a ridiculously long chain
A chain you could lasso a passing horse with
I’d seen his wife too
All sneers and daubed lipstick
She had this outrageous laugh
Felt like a put on, this phoney happiness
I’d seen the dog too
Prowling the back yard
Growling at my presence
Eyeing me through a poked out knot hole in the fence
I heard them argue about his ex
I also heard the make up sex
The bump’n’grind
The rock’n’roll
I held a glass up against the wall
Their post sex muffled tones
The clinking of glasses, one breaks
The pipes chug, clunk
Water rushes through and falls into the bath
Swishing around, hot and cold
I slept
I was as surprised as anybody
When the police knocked on my door
To say that he’d drowned her
Disemboweled her
And buried her in the garden
Where the dog had found her
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12. |
Blooming Flowers
01:29
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Blooming Flowers
I awaken from an afternoon nap
A religious vision stain on the wall
From the boiler leak the other morning
The tinkling chimes of the ice cream guy
Dance through the window ajar
Far away, an aeroplane banks left
The heft of the engines sky high
The birds in the aviary tweet and natter next door
They have about ten, some will flap their wings
But no matter how much they flap
They’ll never fly towards the sun
Or sit in the highest branch of a weeping willow
Or fly south for the winter
When the ice nips their plumage
It’s hot
It’s hot to move
Hot to do, anything
Hot to think about doing anything
I just want to stay here
Motionless, a reclining nude
But food, I’m hungry and thirsty
Oh mercy
But this is what Sunday afternoons are for
They’re languid and lazy bones
Nap strewn and easy-osey
Lounging around in your PJ’s and dozing
Forget about work, tomorrow can wait
Put on the kettle, I’ve got a date
With coffee and toast and a fan on the go
Let’s breeze through the hours
Take a cool shower
And relax in the sun
Because we’re all blooming flowers
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13. |
Between the Pages
01:36
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Between The Pages
From between the pages of a second hand Thomas Keneally novel
Fell a postcard from Beadnell Bay
A horseshoe curved sandy beach
Golden sunshine on a glorious day
I’ve found many items over the years
In dog eared fiction souvenirs
Parking tickets and train tickets to far away destinations
Contactless receipts for London Underground stations
Flyers for a Japanese art exhibition
Long closed, far away in a Boston museum
Business cards and Lichtenstein art
Love notes and lists of hope
Squashed spiders hidden down in the spine on page eighty nine
A plaster, unused
A stick of gum, chewed
A pressed flower that turned to dust
As I turned the page to chapter two
“I’m rich!” I thought
But Monopoly notes don’t pay the bills
“I’m hungry” I mused
But when an M&M rolled down the spine
And settled into my old Levi’s
I didn’t even want to touch it
Never mind munch on it
I’ve found internal library memos
Condemning ‘American Psycho
Shopping lists and Kawasaki stickers
I’ve found plectrums from guitar pickers
There was a short letter once
From one friend to another
About being positive and rising above it
It ended with the line
And, I’ll always remember
“Don’t let the bastards grind you down”
And that’s sage advice for everyone
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14. |
Sunflower Spiral
01:55
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Sunflower Spiral
It’s one of those mornings when you know the summer’s fading
There’s a nip, an edge to the air
The light has ceased being electric
And has become that muted blue grey shade
It’s not quite autumn
The leaves haven’t fallen onto the mulchy ground
It’s the time when the sunflowers wilt
And tilt their heads, bowed down
And their spirals slowly unravel
I have a doctor’s appointment and I sit
Alone in the waiting room
Admiring the emerald green tiles
And the ornamental benches
The lone sunflower outside
Pixelated through the frosted glass
The lush yellow petals wavering
I have a good arm for extracting blood
I would have made an amazing heroin addict
Fist clenched, the veins glow
For a moment I am William Burroughs
But y’know, the older you get
The less confidence you have at your appointments
The pokes and prods, the coughs and the nods
That hanging silence
The creak of my leather jacket amplified around the walls
The form filling, the box ticking, the pen clicking
A horn blasts from the street below
Is that the clock or my heart beating?
I notice the enormousness of my breathing
I mean, come on
Measure me for the coffin already!
No, I’m fine, but time, y’know?
If I live to my grandfather’s age
I’m just past my halfway stage in life
If I reach the age of my mum
I can count the years on my fingers and thumbs
A sobering thought for anyone.
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15. |
Linoleum Milk
01:34
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16. |
Damp Polaroids
02:12
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Damp Polaroids
I stumbled across a photo album today
Discarded or lost, I don’t know
Open on the pavement, the Polaroids damp
Water damaged weddings and soggy birthday celebrations
Some images irretrievable
Cheshire cat grins floating through bubbles of distortion
The photographs given brown frames
Creeping towards the centre
A slow creep
For they’d been there a while
I flick through the landscapes and the backyard fun
The birthday cakes and the setting suns
The bun fights, the one of granny
The coastal sights and a pint of shandy with cheese’n’onion crisps
It reminds me of a time when I came upon a backstreet book shop
It had cats lounging on the shelves and a bell tinkled when you entered
There were spiders in the poetry section, books sprouting in all directions
My eyes were drawn to a box of postcards in the bay window
I flicked slow
Picasso paintings and Pink Floyd album covers, ‘Whistler’s Mother’
Images of Che Guevara and Cleopatra, Sherlock Holmes and Marilyn Monroe
Billie holiday and hidden away, between these images were photographs
Memories
Spitfires and Hurricanes with an old man stood between the planes
Medals pinned to his tweed jacket
A war hero, no doubt
And when they cleared out his house there was nobody to claim them
And they ended up here
I’m not a reminiscer a wisher of going back to the past
But I do like the old photographs
The childhood holidays, my dad’s moustache
Mum’s huge glasses, my sister’s goofiness
The memories, celebrations and special occasions
Of course, time moves on, as it should
People pass, sometimes too soon
And all you have are the photographs
The sentimental value of otherwise worthless things
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17. |
To Be On The Road
01:43
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To Be On The Road
I took a trip to the coast today
A road trip with my dad
It wasn’t exactly Kerouac
As we ate sandwiches in our anoraks
We watch a confused whippet get reunited with its owner
Took a park and ride bus into the town centre
I hadn’t been to this place in maybe thirty years or so
But I remember drinking Coca-Cola in glass bottles
Chip butties and bingo callers
Maggie’s den and legs eleven
One armed bandits and slot machine heaven
Sandcastles, sailing boats
Bats swooping down as we walked home to our caravan
Which was destroyed in a storm
Folded up like a cardboard box
Awoken at night by the squalling foxes
Like you, I’ve been restricted in life
Spent eighteen months not venturing outside
Of the sane old towns, the same old places
The same old faces that you see around
And there we were, in crowds and smells
Bumper cars and Ferris wheels
Pink candy floss spinning slowly
Toffee apples to rot your molars
The beach, long and empty, swathed in sunshine
A couple of kids in the rock pools laughing
Reminds me of when we went crabbing
I can’t say, hand on heart, that everything came flooding back
Places change, towns get rearranged
Into one way systems and tenement flats
It’s not all Bridlington rock and “Kiss me quick” hats
Oh, my sister, she wore deeley boppers!
I just remembered that!
It was a good day
To be on the road
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18. |
The 243rd Chorus
02:04
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The 243rd Chorus
My love is in Mexico
Lounging by the pool
The water spooling around her daughter
As she swims lengths beneath the Aztec sun
And I’m here, many miles distant
The same sun, thin on my eyelids
There’s a faint piano tinkling in the background
A novice’s first steps
The bum notes, the fluffed chords
The misplaced fingers, the diminished fourths
Sound like I know what I’m talking about
But I don’t
For I am a failed piano player
My love played one of those street corner pianos once
A musical interlude at Niagara Falls
I can’t quite recall the title though
The piano playing stops abruptly
With a clang and a thud of frustration
I turn the station over on the television
Then turn again, then turn again
These late afternoons curl around themselves like a baby hedgehog
I want to do something but, y’know
I’ve walked too many miles today
I’ve trudged through the week
That Friday feeling doesn’t exist when Saturday comes
And sleep feel like your only option
But headaches throb and keep you awake
The lawn just won’t mow itself
You have to make time for things before Monday begins
But wait!
It’s a bank holiday
I can procrastinate the day away
Pick blackberries from the garden, have a muffin and a banana
Sleep a while, lounge around, drinking coffee and read poetry aloud
Stay up late, well, maybe midnight, actually, eleven’s more my style
When my eyes begin to flicker with sleep
And my mind drifts to the in between
Oh, the song! It was ‘We Beseech Thee’
It just came to me
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19. |
We Board the Train
01:29
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We Board The Train
We board the train on a crisp January morning
A journey of two contrasting halves
The first inner city graffiti covered walls of abandoned mills
Those dark satanic mills to which Blake referred
Now abandoned or furniture outlets
Commuter apartments or department stores
The sun springs through the clouds
And, at around this time
We find that they’re filming a TV show about
The everyday train traveler
We don’t make the edit
We change trains at a gothic station built in the nineteenth century
Drink coffee, eat homemade scones and on we go
This isn’t a high speed journey though
We canter down the tracks, slipping through the wild moors
Gliding over the rails
Passing small outcast towns and miniature villages
Solitary farm houses
Dry stone walls like crumbling dust
Craggy hedgerows like cracks on the window pane
Finally we reach our destination
A one track quaint coastal station
The end of the line
A long but beautiful journey
We disembark
Weary and ready to eat
As the sun sets on the stalking gulls
Poking at lobster pots and boat decks
For scraps that the fishermen missed
We kiss
Take in the vista
Hustle through the tiny streets
Of a coastal town in winter
Huddled together
As one
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20. |
Listen Up
01:52
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Listen Up
Football boot studs on concrete floors
One of the sounds I adore
Reminds me of being young again
The whirring bicycle chain
Tick-tick-ticking around the cassette
Freewheelin’ into the setting sun
Pinball machines and penny arcades
Handclaps and finger snaps
In the vinyl grooves dug out by the needle
The spinning coin on the tabletop
The pop of the warm toast arriving
The striking match, swoosh!
The stubble scrape
The coffee percolates, drip by drip by drip
The rip of the orange peel exposing the naked fruit
The clink of the pool hall balls against one another and
The rolling journey through the table’s labyrinth
The pen gliding across the surface of fresh clean paper
The crisp crunch
The clunk of the railway track
The tip-tap rain
The click of the camera
The rollerskate wheel on the graffiti curve
The coastal birds searching for morsels
The bottle smashing in the bottle bank
The town hall bells chiming
The sliding bowling balls down the alley
The thunder rumble
The bumblebee buzz
The growl of the motorcycle
And the prowl of the silent cat
Compacting snow underfoot, white
The to and fro of the longing tide
A beck, trickling over rocks and stones
The blown horns, a city, alive
And when the last letterbox closes
And my leather belt whips through the loops on my trousers
And the buckle rattles when I hang it on the door handle
I get to hear my favourite sound of all
And that’s when my love laughs
From the bottom of her deep, deep, heart
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21. |
The Slow Move
01:34
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The Slow Move
The autumn light comes tussling in, playing amongst her hair
As dusk breaks, we blink ourselves awake but we lounge around like lovers do
Arms entwined like tree roots, minds drifting, warm thoughts
The day has begun but so what
We move slow
There’s no need to rush
Dust flickers and drifts, trickling, the sun lighting up corners, momentarily
We are huddled up, in the nook, feeling good, feeling soothed
We have to remind ourselves that the world exists outside
We begin the untangling, the rearranging
Taking the jigsaw apart
But we do it slow
There’s no need to rush
We step, barefoot, our soles warm on the creaking wood
We dance toward the multi coloured rug
We boil the coffee, the smell fills the fresh air
Sticky cider doughnuts on our fingertips
Leaves brittle, slowly falling in the woods
And we sit in the new calm of the morning sun
Peaceful, tranquil
Another night, another day
It had to end, I guess
As I turn my head back to the place
Where my love and I just laid
But we move slow
There’s no need to rush
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